Random Post!

Okay, so, here's the earth.. chillin... dang, that is a sweet earth you might say? Round.

Er.. wait, this is random, but I have been listening to old music since I have not had much new music to listen too.. or I've listened to it over and over and over and over and need to bust the tunes in the shower to something else.

So I found a few CD's.. one was Ryan's Mix.. my first CD of mix songs!

One of the songs I listened too tonight in the shower. It was a song that had a lot of meaning to me, because well, I guess none of you but Ant (who isnt really on here anyway, unless he steals Randi's book!) knew me before college, but I have changed a LOT since even college, but especially since I was younger. I had bad things happen to me when I was young, that I never speak of (but always hint to?) that made me become a shell. Oddly enough, I dont even know if Anna, Jeff, or Katie could have known that a lot of what I was like outside was not how I felt inside. Its not like I was sad or whatnot, I was just really empty. Making people smile and laugh was something that always brightened me, hence why I am such a goofball. Nowadays, I just do it to make people's day a little brighter, or give them a little laughter, to be silly!

Anyway, music was a big way for me to vent. I am not the best singer by any means, my sister blows me away, but despite being so insecure inside, I would belt out tunes in the tub, no matter if Mallory had friends over or not. It was my safety zone #1.. (Car = Safety Zone #2)

This song had a big effect on me, and I loved hearing it in the shower today and I had this urge to share it with you.

Now, granted, the video I dont 100% agree with. (Theres some turn away gross scenes) But the song is what is most important.



Perhaps in the future I will start putting up videos of songs that always had a positive effect on me and share them with you. Music is my thing. Music makes me cry in joy, my eyes well up in tears, music makes me miss my family, music wraps its note-like arms around me and holds me when I am sad, and dances with me when I am joyful. Its one of the constants in my life.